I’ve recently begun working in an outpatient substance abuse and addiction clinic. I’m learning more and more about addiction and am developing the overarching understanding that human beings bear addictive patterns by default, particularly as a result of being imperfect beings. It’s intriguing to me how closely addiction and maintenance behaviors thereof pertain to the maintenance behaviors of sin in general. It’s all about filling a void in our lives. For some, it’s drugs and/or alcohol. For others it’s food or the internet, including games and social media. Still for others, it’s any other type of escape that we might justify or rationalize.
I’ve been asked several times, in my 3 weeks so far, what my drug of choice is. That’s easy. It’s food. And I binge. Particularly on carb-heavy snacks. And then I feel like crap (physically and mentally) as a result.
We lie and deceive to hide our sin not unlike David did with regard to his own sin of having sex with Bathsheba, a woman not his wife (and another man’s wife at that). In addiction, there is the same thing. It is not uncommon for an addict to claim to need to run to the store for a loaf of bread in order to actually see his or her “guy” to obtain a drug of choice. Never mind that the “grocery store visit” takes 3 hours… for a loaf of bread.
The fact of the matter is that in sin and addiction, we’re only lying to ourselves. Someone might believe the lie once or twice, but they know – or they are in denial as to the gravity of the problem. But they know.